Sometimes I get a bit overwhelmed by how often playtime can occur or juggling all of our new social connections and keeping them intact for possible future playtime. Which is kind of the reason why I wanted to attend the meet and greet at the club tonight. But I also get to go out and have fun...which I sometimes sorely need after having a stressful day at home. So, even though I sometimes feel like I have too much on my plate, I also get disappointed when fun times, even if it doesn't include playtime, doesn't occur. For example, last night, I was supposed to pay a visit to Mr. B, just to give him a massage with the possibility of playtime. Well, he seemed busy during the time that I was going to go over so going over for a visit never materialized. Then, today, I had thought about going out to the club to chat and dance with several of our swinger friends since it's always nice to dress up and go somewhere. But it didn't seem right to go out on my own without Mr. Sunbuckus to meet possible new couples. Then I wondered if maybe Mr. B would want to go together but he had considered staying at home, watching movies and inviting me over. Well, those plans also changed and he ended up going to the club with his lovely wife before she goes to work, which is for the best.
So, here I sit, complaining about my two different feelings. On one hand, I feel a bit spread thin and on the other hand, I feel disappointed that I'm not doing anything socially. However, I did think about how I have missed just spending time with Mr. Sunbuckus so hopefully tonight will work out for the best.
