Mrs. Sunbuckus: Gun Shy

The past two couples that we played with have been less than enticing. I knew that we would play with couples that wouldn't be very exciting but I didn't think we would actually play with couples that we may not really be attracted to! I think we just wanted to play and accepted whoever was interested...which may have not been a good idea. I actually found myself not at all attracted to the past two males in these couples and was not at all excited to kiss them. In all honesty, if I could have just closed my eyes and focused that their dicks were inside and I could pretend it was someone else, I probably would have. Luckily, with the last couple, I was fingered a bit too harshly and was able to stave off anymore playtime by claiming that I had "broke". Not to mention, that the last couple seemed to only be interested in playing with me...which I hated. I wanted Mr. Sunbuckus to play as well and when it seemed that the female half just wanted girl/girl play, I wanted out but I wasn't sure how.

Anyway, those two experiences have made me very wary in going out and finding another couple to play with...almost to the point of just wanting to swing with one of the couples that we've played with already or not swing for awhile. It's so hard to find couples that we're both interested in and who are interested in us...the both of us. I have often wondered if couples who have been in the LS for awhile realize this and decide to swing separately or if those couples are resigned to pass on swing opportunities. Since it seems that women are able to get more playtime, I would be more than happy to give Mr. Sunbuckus a hall pass to play with the wife of a couple (as long as they are okay with it) separately if I am not attracted to the husband. Of course, how do you politely tell a couple, "Hey, I don't find you attractive but our spouses are into each other, why don't we just let them have fun?"

We have another weekend of possible fun coming up. I really hope we have a good experience because if not, I am not sure how many more of these "bad" experiences I can take before I want to withdraw from swinging for awhile.